Do you fear God?
I sometimes wonder if the reason for my dedication to him is because I’m fearful of retribution. As long as I continue to pray, or run a business for him, or go to Church, then I won’t be punished.
A better question: Do you fear God for the right reasons?
There are many schools of thought surrounding this gift of the Holy Spirit and there’s an understandable reason for why this is the case.
“The moral life of Christians is sustained by the gifts of the Holy Spirit. These are permanent dispositions which make man docile in following the promptings of the Holy Spirit. … They complete and perfect the virtues of those who receive them. They make the faithful docile in readily obeying divine inspirations” (catechism, No.1830-31)
A man whose words carry a much greater weight once said:
“Through the fear of the Lord, we rise to piety, from piety then to knowledge, from knowledge we derive strength, from strength counsel, with counsel we move toward understanding, and with intelligence toward wisdom and thus, by the sevenfold grace of the Spirit, there opens to us at the end of the ascent the entrance to the life of Heaven” ( Pope St. Gregory the Great in “Homiliae in Hiezechihelem Prophetam,” II 7,7).
Even when the great minds of our world explain so eloquently how we should understand what God meant, it’s hard to not question this mysterious gift. When I begin to think about every decision made in my life, it’s impossible to chalk it all up to luck. There has been a constant divine hand guiding my life to follow him more closely. When I truly take this wide-angle lens view, I begin to feel that fear. It’s incomprehensible that all of the actions and inactions in my life have led me this far. I am fearful of how much I don’t know. How much I don’t know about this infinite truth.
When Job was shown a split-second of what God sees, it almost killed him. I will try to take Job’s word and remain in awe and fear of my Lord.